Shnikes

Holy shnikes.*

You are seriously never going to believe this.

I got caught today at work. Looking for a new job.**

Yeah. I know.

I can’t believe it either.

And not even caught-red-handed-at-my-desk-posting-my-resume caught. My boss somehow found out that I’d placed my resume back in “the marketplace”. Like, as in, he saw it with his own eyes or one of the company’s recruiters alerted him.

I can’t even imagine how red I turned during our meeting.

Thank goodness he’s super understanding. He’s been feeling my discomfort in this new position (with a new to-me company) for the past five weeks as, during our weekly meeting, he asks me to rate my feelings when I come into work on a scale of one to ten, and I’ve been consistently responding “3″.***

So, surprisingly, the vibe I got off him was that he was trying to convince me to stay! No punishment, no you’re-outta-here’s. Though he did ask me to explain why I’ve been looking for a new job. Despite its obviousness.

We talked it out, and I feel a bit better about my job. Though, then again, we meet every week and after every weekly meeting I “feel a bit better”. Then when I return to my desk, the dread sets in again and I go into panic mode.

Let’s just hope I can keep it calm until I settle in some more. Whew.

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In more exciting news, it’s our black pug’s third birthday today. Happy birthday, V!


*That’s right. I’m bringing it back.
** !!!!!!!!
***During our first meeting, it was a 2. At least I’m honest!